I Have a Purpose

I bought my first DSLR camera (Canon T1i) about four and a half years ago, thanks to my husband.  I have been taking pictures since I was a teenager, but the fire really started to grow when I got that DSLR.  I took several pictures the first couple of years of friends, strangers, and my family, but then I started to feel like I wasn't good enough.  I had a few sessions in 2013 and 2014, but tried to avoid sessions as much as possible because I was scared.  I am not going to go into the boring details, so let's just fast forward to May of 2014.

My daughter came into this world on May 9th, 2014.  After she arrived I couldn't stop taking pictures of her.  I am pretty sure she thought my face was either an iPhone or a camera lens.  Around the beginning of the spring I discovered the Facebook page of an amazing photographer out of Texas.  Her name is Liz Labianca, and she is awesome (you should check out her FB page!).  I hope that I don't get into trouble for mentioning her name on here haha -  I am not sure about all of the blog rules just yet.  Anyway, I started following her and fell in love with her photos.  She made me want to be a better photographer for my children and myself.

 I kindly asked my husband if I could upgrade my camera earlier this year, and he allowed me to get a Canon 70D.  I picked it up a little bit, but I was pretty intimidated by it.  I determined that I allow myself to be overcome by fear A LOT, which has taken away the joy of many things in my life and prevented me from growing.  I have been praying about that.  Anyway, I was tired of being scared and tired of feeling like I wasn't good enough to take pictures.  It sounds ridiculous when I say it out loud.  I realized I was mainly taking pictures to get likes on Facebook, which was really dumb.  Why do I REALLY want to take pictures?  Is it to gain attention or to capture something beautiful?  

About two months ago I went to Barnes and Noble and bought Capture the Moment, which is a book that Liz is featured in.  The book is full of photos and tips about photographing the moment.  It sounds corny, but that book changed something inside of me.  I remember sitting in B&N reading that book and feeling so inspired.  It took me less than a day and a half to go through it, and I am already looking forward to reading it again.  It gave me a desire to photograph my kids in a new way, and it made me want to learn more about photography and my purpose.  For the last couple of months I have spent my weekends snapping photos of my daughter.  I love the way she looks at the world.  She finds joy in everything, and it warms my heart and soul.  The last couple of months of reading and taking pictures have made me realize that I do have a purpose.  

My purpose is to show the joy of life through photographs.  Not sure where it will take me, but one thing is for sure, I am going to have some rad photos on my walls of my kids.  I pray that I will be able to capture something wonderful for future clients, friends, and my family.  I don't want to give cold pictures on a CD, I want to give memories.